From Meyer to Coelho.

It is getting even more busy. I was going to use hectic but that sounds a bit overly dramatic.

And my second annual batuk-selsema-sakit tekak came last Saturday. Every year I akan kena twice. How do I know? 3 years in a row dah kena dah. Once during the earlier part of the year and the second one would usually be following in the middle part of the year.

Took 15ml of cough syrup and in less than 15 minutes I was knocked dead. Figuratively speaking of course.

School work is piling. Part-time work is also piling.

No longer am I the guardian for the children's section. Am taking care of the "Mind, Body, Spirit" and "Travel" section now.

As for school work, I've to get 2 mini projects done by the middle of August and at the same time I still have to figure out a topic for my research paper. The title is due this Friday.

This is going to sound kooky but I actually love my busy life. Makes me feel all grown up. Haha.

But just to keep myself in check with reality, I need to stop and take a breather.

Saya tak nak la lose control of everything pulak kan???

**Inception was awesome. 3 of my favourite indie actors were in it. I knew ada Joseph Levitt and Cillian Murphy but then I saw Lukas Haas and I was like "No effing way!". Too bad they cut his character short. And Ellen Page definitely held her own amongst all the male lead.**

When I saw you standing there.

The other day he wore a pair of khakis.

I swear rasa macam head over heels balik.

It's only been a week or so ehh?

Low self restrain, this much I can say about myself.

It is so much harder than it looks.

Then again, nobody said it was going to be easy.

You were supposed to make this easy for me. I dunno, marah ke, yell at me ke....

Makan masa, saya tau. Everything takes time.

Kalau ada butang, dah lama dah saya switch off terus je.

Anyway, this is for a dear friend of mine, whom hari tu were talking about taking risks.

Quote taken from my favourite heroin of all time, Kathleen Kelly portrayed by Meg Ryan.

"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, not small, but valuable. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave?" (You've Got Mail, 1998).

Indifferent. Focus only on that and you'll be fine. (Pep talk to self.)

I'm lucky just to linger in your light.

"You'll never reach perfection because there's always room for improvement. Yet along the way to perfection you'll learn to get better." (Versus, 2010).

I RARELY cry over books. Especially ones that are Malay novels. Tapi why am I making the exception for books written by Hlovate eh? (Haiyoo, kantoi betul...)

Moving on to another random topic.....

I think I'm going to be okay. Day 2 was not so bad. (Heh, takde pangkal cerita tiba-tiba terus jump to Day 2)

Although kadang-kadang that "tugging" feeling at hujung hati tu adala rasa sekali-sekala.

Tapi I can now be in the same room with you and not feel as much as I used to before.

On the way to feeling indifferent perhaps?

Or maybe because the end is looming close that I've finally reached my senses?

Still, if given the chance to go through all that again for the second time, I would most probably say yes.

Third time pun yes.

Fourth pun yes.

Because despite it all, you did make me smile.

Uncle Kracker cakap,

You make me smile like the sun

Fall out of bed

Sing like bird

Dizzy in my head

Spin like a record

Crazy on a Sunday night

I'm going to be okay. Been through worse before kan??

=)