Precisely at 10:31:15 pm

I don't think I'm special.

When I'm sad, I know there are other people out there that are going through worse things.

My friend once told me, "In the grand scheme of things, hal kteorang ni kira picisan je."

So yeah, the one thing that always make me sad ni kira a speck of dust je la kalau nak compare dengan other bigger things. War, Egypt crisis, the flood that devastated the people in Johor Bharu.

But I guess, being human...well, sometimes there's a point where you think you can't control it anymore. Macam nak break down je. Sekejap pun jadi la. Lepas tu put on balik your tough exterior.

I was sad tonight. And I asked Him to take the sadness away.

He answered it right away.

Terkedu sekejap. In awe? Terkejut?

I can't think of a better word.

Rasa macam diri ni kecik.

He loves me. Macam Allah sayang hamba-hamba Dia yang lain. (Amal, 2011)

I've a long way to go.

When you don't even know where to begin.

The change is hard.

And they're not helping.

I need someone to believe in me. Someone who thinks I can be better than the person I am now.

I need someone to show me the way.

Because I don't know how to.

Have been contemplating lately.

Nak shut down the social account. And this too.

Tapi masih ragu-ragu. 50-50? 60-40? 70-30?

I was suggested to "privatise" it. This.

Tengokla macam mana...