Saturday, May 22, 2010

Pointing out the obvious.

I didn't notice it before. Okay, boleh rasa la sikit-sikit but I'm good at denying the facts and denial land is sometimes my second home.

Sorry Amal and Ain. Didn't realize I was putting you guys through torture. Haha.

But okay, I will tone it down eh...The last thing I want is for me to create another secret blog filled with screenshots of YM messages between two people.

Haha, joking. Jangan marah eh siapa-siapa yang terasa tu. ;p

But thank you for today.

Funny how sometimes it only takes your best friends to point out the obvious baru diri sendiri nak accept the fact for what it is.

I knew there are months where all the post would be all about it tapi did not realize pulak it was THAT much.

I'm oh-so very allergic to the word j!w@ng. So if your own besties, who sometimes can be the one mirror of truth you know you can't avoid dah cakap "Hey, your blog makin *beep* la..." then you know you're in a deep trouble.

By the way, I love you guys for choosing my side. And for what it's worth, I'll always be on your side too no matter what.

And please jangan la buat aksi paging macam tu lagi next time. ;p

Finally get to lepas rindu seeing my cousin who happens to be teramatla ayu with her new tudung-clad image.

And Ain, we're going to miss you and your snarky, sarcastic attitude when you leave us for Sabah. *Sobs-sobs*.

Twice this week I splurged at Zanmai. Even Amal dapat her infamous "foodgasm". That should be an achievement to me la kan? Since she rarely gets it. LMAO!

Monday, May 17, 2010

And I don't want the world to see me.

Cause I don't think that they'd understand.

I'm done.

For now.

And yes Fida, the quote is for you. ;)

I feel like posting 5 random musings.

1. The more someone trusts you, the more they expect of you. And they'll load you with more responsibility.

2. As you sow, so shall you reap. I finally understood what the idiom meant.

3. Ignorance is seriously bliss. Because sometimes there are things that you wish you had never found out in the first place.

4. The previous post, that was a relapse. Sorry.

5. Don't think you've got me all figured out when you have never lived my life.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

When I saw you standing there.

The other day he wore a pair of khakis.

I swear rasa macam head over heels balik.

It's only been a week or so ehh?

Low self restrain, this much I can say about myself.

It is so much harder than it looks.

Then again, nobody said it was going to be easy.

You were supposed to make this easy for me. I dunno, marah ke, yell at me ke....

Makan masa, saya tau. Everything takes time.

Kalau ada butang, dah lama dah saya switch off terus je.

Anyway, this is for a dear friend of mine, whom hari tu were talking about taking risks.

Quote taken from my favourite heroin of all time, Kathleen Kelly portrayed by Meg Ryan.

"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, not small, but valuable. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave?" (You've Got Mail, 1998).

Indifferent. Focus only on that and you'll be fine. (Pep talk to self.)

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Hey soul sister...

Last week I finally dapat makan the lemon meringue pie I've been craving for since last year.

Ye, memang boleh buat sendiri tapi seriously can't find the time to do it nor do I've any idea how to do it.

Dapat makan the meringue pie pun by pure coincidence actually. A friend of mine, who she herself at that time was craving for a dish of seafood pasta decided that we should have lunch at this place called Delicious. Haha, perasan weh namakan your restaurant with that name.

Anyway, she got her pasta and I got my pie. Seriously it was darn hard for me to find any pie resembling the lemon meringue before this. Tried searching in Secret Recipe, Baker's Cottage and even Delifrance but to no avail.

I love lunches with girlfriends. Good food, great company.

The best part, she took care of the bill. When asked what was the occasion (My birthday has long past and she already got me a birthday gift. I know it can't be because I've been behaving like a good girl since she has to handle a lot of my lorat-ness at work. Haha), she simply said "Sebab dapat masuk U.M."

Aww...ini yang sayang lebih ni... Haha. Joking. Even without the blue cheese dipping and the pie itself I love love LOVE ya already.

I can never repay your kindness.

Nak treat you lunch in a posh restaurant pun, I'm not that filthy rich yet. Haha.

I can only pray that peace be upon you and may Allah bless you always dear soul sister. ;)

On the same day itself I got a call saying my hummingbird is here. After lunch ape lagi....

My friend told me each charm usually symbolizes a special occasion or mark off something special that happened in the person's life.

Me, I think the charms on the bracelet should be all about the wearer's characteristics. Things that will tell you something about the wearer.

Treble clef is of course for my obvious passion in music.

I is the initial of my name.

Snow flake because selalu berangan nak main snow but Malaysian humid and dry weather menghalang niat. =/

Humming bird as a protest against butterflies. Butterflies are so overrated. Butterfly pendants, butterfly brooches, butterfly's the association of butterfly and being feminine I guess. Pfft! Baik beli the humming bird.

The pink diamond was chosen by my mom. (After I begged her repetitively to buy me one charm. My money dah habis di-drained obviously). And to her, the one who holds the $$-$$ has the final say. Can't really argue with her on that one can I?

Can I have four more charms please?

A pair of red ballet shoes that is oh-so-darn-adorable, a red handbag charm (wajib la ada for a handbag aficionado like moi kan...), a diary and a Thomas Sabo medallion with red rubies on it.

That charm itself is worth half of my monthly paycheck.

My boss once told me to marry a Tan Sri, not a Dato. He emphasized on the Tan Sri. Now I understand why. Haih...

Thursday, May 06, 2010

I'm lucky just to linger in your light.

"You'll never reach perfection because there's always room for improvement. Yet along the way to perfection you'll learn to get better." (Versus, 2010).

I RARELY cry over books. Especially ones that are Malay novels. Tapi why am I making the exception for books written by Hlovate eh? (Haiyoo, kantoi betul...)

Moving on to another random topic.....

I think I'm going to be okay. Day 2 was not so bad. (Heh, takde pangkal cerita tiba-tiba terus jump to Day 2)

Although kadang-kadang that "tugging" feeling at hujung hati tu adala rasa sekali-sekala.

Tapi I can now be in the same room with you and not feel as much as I used to before.

On the way to feeling indifferent perhaps?

Or maybe because the end is looming close that I've finally reached my senses?

Still, if given the chance to go through all that again for the second time, I would most probably say yes.

Third time pun yes.

Fourth pun yes.

Because despite it all, you did make me smile.

Uncle Kracker cakap,

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed
Sing like bird
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night

I'm going to be okay. Been through worse before kan??


Sunday, May 02, 2010

I knew I love you before I met you...

The first time I saw you at Pavillion last year I knew you were trouble. And because I was afraid of approaching you I kept my distance even though my heart longed to get to know you better. Because I knew you spelled TROUBLE.

Then this year in April, I heard that you were coming. God knows how much I anticipated your arrival. Everyday on my way to work I would take the unnecessary route past your place, hoping to catch a glimpse of you.

And then tiba-tiba, on one innocent Monday Morning, while I was on my way to work, when I least expected it, I saw you.

Schmuck! You're here, I thought.

Because no one was around (it was pretty early in the morning) I decided to come closer to you (not that you're aware of it). The closer I got to you, the harder my heart pounded. Never have I been this elated to see you.

Really, I should just turn back and pretend tak nampak anything. Turn back now before it's too late. That was what my head was frantically trying to warn me but somehow my feet weren't listening. My mind was temporarily paralyzed at the sight of you.

Finally I was next to you. So close I could almost reach out and touch you.

All you did was stood there. Lifeless, even. You barely have to do anything and already I am in love with you. The effect that you have on me, I really do hate it sometimes.

You had to come to the Gardens la kan... buat my life tak tenteram kan... Kenapa tak boleh duduk diam-diam je kat Pavillion dulu...

After much staring and gaping, (you of course were totally oblivious to my presence) I had to pull myself away from you.

That evening after work, after much encouragement from my two friends, we (yeah, they tagged along for moral support) decided that we should...*ahem* berkenal-kenalan.

It turned out okay. The first ever, face-to-face meeting. I didn't stutter when talking and even my friends approved of you.

On my way home, all I could think of was you. Even though the meeting was short, there was definitely a connection. I felt it, and you felt it too.

Finally last Wednesday, I decided to take this 'thing' that we have here to the next level.

Thus began our love affair. Why is it an affair? Because I know my parents will never approve of you. They would say you're nothing but trouble for me. That when I'm around you I can't seem to think straight. How can I think clearly when you make me that happy?? Happy does not even do justice to describe the feeling I get whenever you're around me. You're even better than dark chocolate. I like chocolate. But I love dark chocolate... So yeah, you do the math...

I don't really know for how long this relationship will last. Like all "star-crossed" lovers yang hubungannye dihalang oleh parents, sacrifices need to be made for us to work this in the long run. No pain, no gain kan...

Although kadang-kadang pain la jugak kan when I'm the only one making all the sacrifices. I'm the one who's always giving while you're the one who's always receiving.

But because I really really REALLY love you Thomas Sabo, I don't mind. I'll keep giving you my $$-$$, you just keep on showering me with you 'charm(s)'. Heh, pun intended.

3 5 (just added another 2 as of this evening) down, 13 more to go.

*Random : Thomas Sabo is from German. Awesomeness kan?? Did I mention I used to take German in university?*

*Seriously jatuh cinta dengan that kedai weh... And seriously dah pokai sekarang... =/ *

*Amal, nanti will post the pic eh.. They had to order the hummingbird charm I wanted since it ran out of stock. Pfft!*