"Happiness hit her like a bullet in the back."

That is according to Florence & The Machine.

Another one that people always use is "It was like a bullet through the chest."

Can't really imagine the pain since I was never shot in the chest before.

Tapi what I felt tadi was nothing like I ever experienced before. Not even when with budak koperasi.

In shock.

Nak call my cousin, she's already asleep.

Tried calling Cik F.O.S, she didn't pick up for the first 20 minutes or so.

Desperate sangat sampai sent her a pleading text to pick up the phone.

Ellina pulak jauh sangat kat India and I can't afford an international call.

But I have to unload it off to someone.

Then I asked my sister for a favour.

"Can you give along a hug but not ask what is wrong?".

And she did. An A plus sister, she is.

Ten minutes later baru dapat a call from Farihna.

Thanks.

I needed it.

I'm sorry for being this pathetic. I'm just a human being after all.

By the way, Selamat Ramadhan to all.