For 2010 I want to be braver.

2009 is by far the most challenging year I've endured in all my 22 years of living life. There were failures, trials and tests so big I thought I might not "come out of it alive". Never have I imagined the things that happened this year could actually happen to me but hey, at least I got a nasty slap of reality. I slipped, I fell, I crawled (and I don't mean them literally) but somehow I managed to get to the end of the "tunnel" standing tall in my red ballet flats. And dah nazak dah that kasut. I might need a new pair for 2010 ;p

It's true I guess, "What doesn't kill you can only make you stronger."

Still, I'm forever grateful for the second chance given to fix all the damages done. And I had to remind myself that 22 is a teenie bit young to be having mid life crisis let alone a quarter life crisis.

I'm praying for 2010 to be better than 2009. I missed the feeling of working hard and putting in 110% effort for the things I really want. Somehow along 2009 I lost my determination in everything I do because I went through a nasty failure (the biggest ever in my entire life) and I was not sure what I wanted to do with my life anymore. But parents and close friends knocked some sense in me and a second chance made everything right again. I'm back on the right track and I hope everything that has happened this year will be a lesson well learned.

And I think this is the year to step out of my comfort zone. I've been having this inkling feeling lately, I want to try new things. The kind that'll give you thrill and probably remember for the rest of your life. Bungee jumping? Air ballooning?

Okay, baby steps...I know...

Goals are set (as usual). I manage to even accomplish one already and it's not even 2010 yet. Well, it'll be in less than 5 hours. =) Another in mind is getting into postgraduate school. It'll be the perfect opportunity for me to start a clean slate, education wise.

If You Found Me by The Fray was my theme for 2009 (the somberness was perfect for what I was going through at that time), this year it's going to be all about Fort Minor. Shinoda provided me with just the perfect anecdote for the year 2010. For success you need "ten percent luck, twenty percent skill, fifteen percent concentrated power of will, five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain and a hundred percent reason to remember the name!".

Though I don't think I'd want to feel that much pain. Oh well, no pain no gain right?

I'm off now before I get overly optimistic and include more "quotes of inspiration" here.

The picture is taken from bluquote.tumblr.com. It's one of my favourite page.

That's it then for 2009...

Auf Wiedersehen people. See you next year. =)